This blog I mean. I just don't feel like I have a lot to say. Some days are alright, some are horrible. Some days I go through the whole day without that sinking feeling, then other days (like yesterday) it suddenly hits me so hard I want to vomit. I miss her. It's cold and … Continue reading No, I’ve not abandoned it
Tag: grief
A year has come, and passed.
How is it that a whole year just went by? I admit that I have, for the most part - been in a state of disassociation I think. Sometimes worse than others. But suddenly the day was here. I had spent about 3 weeks FULLY completely dreading it. Then two weeks wondering what I should … Continue reading A year has come, and passed.
End of Summer
This is about the time that all the trees with their dried out leaves begin to whisper about the Fall. It is a time of year I normally love. This year it is tainted and darker. There is more than just random stories in the chatter of the leaves. More than just a collection of … Continue reading End of Summer
No sugar coating
Mostly I just feel like shit. I feel old, tired, ugly, disillusioned, sad and angry. Don't tell me to see a counselor. Just don't. Because there is nothing anyone can say to make anything better. Unless his or her child died. Maybe then we'd have something to talk about. Otherwise no. Yes, I have lots … Continue reading No sugar coating
Finding Comfort
When tragedy strikes, we are often faced with failure. Not failure of our own self - because it is expected that we break down during tragedy - but failure of belief systems to provide comfort or failure of the support from people we were sure we could have counted on. Having your child die feels … Continue reading Finding Comfort
