I could never foresee a decade of you being gone. Ten Octobers. It feels wrong to not be finding a 'special' way to express this anniversary of grief. Like, somehow I should find a different and more adequate way to express how broken my heart is. Blue hair, blue eyes. Mis-matched socks. I can still … Continue reading Ten Years of Missing You
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Summer of 25
Well, Summer for those who consider June 21'st to be 'MidSummer', and not the beginning of summer, of which I am one of those. Sharing something I wrote about a year ago. Being the vessel is not complacency, it is song creation. The only thing that causes one being to be different from the other … Continue reading Summer of 25
Religious Musings
I’m sitting here in the kitchen, it is a very sunny, bright and clear winter afternoon. I’m struggling with religion again, it seems to be a common thing. Wondering what path is right for me, wondering if any path will ever be right for me. I try to remind myself that religions are all just … Continue reading Religious Musings
It’s that day again
Each year it's harder to find the words. I've said all the words many times over. Raw, immediate grief finds its way into writing more easily in the early days than the later days. Days blurred and numbed by grief. Now when this day approaches I start thinking. "What else am I going to be … Continue reading It’s that day again
Random rant, mostly about being too short for my weight.
Almost a year ago I had a phone call appointment with my (young, female*) family physician. It went something like this: Me: So, I was thinking, and I've decided I want a breast reduction. Doctor : Hmm..... Me: Yeah, I mean I have degenerative disk disease in my neck, headaches, neck pain and almost 20 … Continue reading Random rant, mostly about being too short for my weight.
