How is it that a whole year just went by? I admit that I have, for the most part - been in a state of disassociation I think. Sometimes worse than others. But suddenly the day was here. I had spent about 3 weeks FULLY completely dreading it. Then two weeks wondering what I should … Continue reading A year has come, and passed.
Tag: grief
End of Summer
This is about the time that all the trees with their dried out leaves begin to whisper about the Fall. It is a time of year I normally love. This year it is tainted and darker. There is more than just random stories in the chatter of the leaves. More than just a collection of … Continue reading End of Summer
No sugar coating
Mostly I just feel like shit. I feel old, tired, ugly, disillusioned, sad and angry. Don't tell me to see a counselor. Just don't. Because there is nothing anyone can say to make anything better. Unless his or her child died. Maybe then we'd have something to talk about. Otherwise no. Yes, I have lots … Continue reading No sugar coating
Finding Comfort
When tragedy strikes, we are often faced with failure. Not failure of our own self - because it is expected that we break down during tragedy - but failure of belief systems to provide comfort or failure of the support from people we were sure we could have counted on. Having your child die feels … Continue reading Finding Comfort
Heading Toward Winter
Always has been my favourite time of year. On dry days, the few leaves left on almost bare branches make an empty almost rattling noise as the rustle against grey skies. Last weekend was FanExpo. It was nice but tiring. My highlights were getting John Barrowman's autograph on a memorial picture of my daughter, and … Continue reading Heading Toward Winter
In the Wind 