Yesterday was the 43rd anniversary of my conversion to Judaism. If you go by the Jewish calendar, it would be in 4 days from now on 15 Adar. I was five at the time - there I go, aging myself! - and I was terrified of going in the water of the mikveh for my … Continue reading Returning to Judaism (for the first time)
Four Years
Some people look at New Year's to gauge their progress or reflect upon the year. And upon life in general. For me it's October 7th. It's how I mark the time I guess. Not intentionally. But it is the day that altered my life profoundly. Before she died. After she died. It has become a … Continue reading Four Years
The season of return
Caitlin ~ fall is in the air. The days are growing shorter and the nights cooler. We have so many sunflowers in the yard. I can't even count them. Looking at them I think of you, and your love of autumn. In less than two months it will be 4 years since you passed. Autumn … Continue reading The season of return
My 1st Soberversary
I'm going to pre-face this by thanking my wonderful supportive partner. I think I still could have done this on my own but I'm glad I didn't have to. One of the first things he said to me this morning was "Happy soberversary baby, I'm so proud of you!' I was half asleep still and … Continue reading My 1st Soberversary
So… 2020, a year of learning?
I think that if my daughter hadn't died, maybe this pandemic would have had a bigger impact. But once your child dies, there isn't really anything else that can top that. Everything else is slightly sepia. Every once in a while I look at my life, where I am now and I grieve. There is … Continue reading So… 2020, a year of learning?
