No, I’ve not abandoned it

This blog I mean. I just don’t feel like I have a lot to say. Some days are alright, some are horrible. Some days I go through the whole day without that sinking feeling, then other days (like yesterday) it suddenly hits me so hard I want to vomit.

I miss her.

It’s cold and icy.

I’m not living healthily.

Oh, I found something that I’m kind of excited about. Ball-Jointed Dolls. An expensive hobby, but you know, if I’m not buying liquor and cigarettes that makes a  huge difference.

These are the two dolls I’m hoping to get in the next two months. Both are from Doll Leaves.

Nina : http://www.doll-leaves.com/doll/view_488.html

and Jeremy: http://www.doll-leaves.com/doll/view_485.html

They will not have the outfits/wigs etc as shown – its a process to get them how I want them to be, but I’m excited about it.

Also, as I still hate Facebook (but love that my daughter’s legacy page is there as well as a few people I can’t talk to elsewhere) I was glad that someone who runs a group I belong to on FB suggested maybe having it somewhere else. I told him to check out MeWe because it’s actually a very decent social network without tracking, algorithms or ads. And although I love Diaspora, for groups it just doesn’t work. So I was back poking about on MeWe again today and really it’s still a very impressive place. As for privacy its almost too private – public posts don’t even exist – so its very low on the troll/briefing scale.  If you are on mewe or want to check it out, Im there ~ https://mewe.com/i/birch.wind  It’s even pleasant to look at!

 There is quite a bit of information about MeWe, just scroll down on the main home page and read their About and all that stuff .

Anyhow, nothing thought provoking tonight, just checking in to say im still here. *cheers*